BulingBuling_菜菜, who is a Haoran c-fan known for her Haoran video edits on Bilibili, celebrates her birthday today with a heartbreaking and bittersweet account of her recent struggles, and how the kindhearted Haoran, and Nuan Yang (Haoran’s fandom name, which fittingly means “Warm Sun”), have helped her through it.
Don’t want to waste everyone’s time by rambling like I always do (I cried through this entire translation process), but just want to say that I’m thankful for everyone who’s reading this, for all of you who have joined our little international Haoran fan community .
Fandom can absolutely be a great thing, as it can create such a warm, positive, encouraging community, and Haoran is absolutely deserving of all the love in the world. This isn’t the first time he’s quietly done something like this either. Also, just big hugs to everyone – may we all remember to be kind and help one another.
Please support her by watching her videos here!
And if you’re on Weibo, drop her an encouraging message here!
TRANSLATION OF HER ACCOUNT (ORIGINAL IMAGE ABOVE)
I’ve been on semi-hiatus for more than half a year because of unfortunate events.
In April 2017, my father was diagnosed with Stage 4 lymphoma (cancer).
In July 2017, I decided to become a Liu Haoran fan.
He was like a comfort to me, what brought light into my life.
In October 2017, my father finished his 8th round of chemotherapy, and was recovering well, so I attended Liu Horan’s 20th birthday fanmeet. He was just as warm and bright as I had imagined.
In November 2017, I started learning video editing, and began to edit Liu Haoran videos and promotional videos for my store. I won’t say I learned it for Liu Haoran, but he definitely made it a lot easier to persevere during the learning process.
More and more people began to like my videos, and more and more people began to like my store. Dad was also recovering well.
Everything was going so well, it didn’t feel real. And of course, it wasn’t.
In November 2018, my father’s condition suddenly got worse, a lot worse than we had imagined. But we couldn’t go through it all again – our energy, our financial state didn’t allow for it. I had three to four days where I couldn’t sleep, as I was trying to think of how I could hold on to my father.
Crowdfunding? My father didn’t agree. He said it would affect my life going forward. But I still took this step, because keeping my father (alive) was worth everything.
My father was right. It did affect my life. But the way it affected it: I found warm support that helped me escape the darkness faster. It’s made me want to work harder, be a better person.
On November 20, I asked for help via crowdfunding on Bilibili, Weibo, QQ, and WeChat, and instantly receieved tens of thousands of messages. I could have never imagined this kind of response.
Sitting outside of the ICU, and seeing all of your messages, I cried so much and could only think of one thing, “The kindness of strangers will make you realize this world really is wonderful.” (She names several Nuan Yang by nickname)…so many, so many people offered their help. These “strangers”…most of whom I’ve never met…thank you, thank you.
On the early morning of December 21st, someone messaged me saying a person wanted to help me, and asked me for my (bank) account.
At 10am on the 21st, I received a huge sum of money. Honestly, at the time, I was so shocked I didn’t even look to see who it was from. My first thought was just, we now had enough to cover the next step of my father’s medical care. Later that afternoon, after I had gotten my father’s medicine and talked to his doctors, I went back to look at the fund transfer.
When I saw Remitter (person who sent the money): Liu Yuan (Haoran’s real name – you can see the transfer message at the bottom right of the image above), I thought I was seeing things. I couldn’t believe it, and didn’t dare to believe it.
Kindhearted people will attract the love of kindhearted people. That’s why Liu Haoran, and all of you who love him, are so kind and warm.
My father still left me, and I never told him about the crowdfunding.
I told him, “Dad, don’t worry about the medical bills. I have a friend who gave me a lot of money. His name is Liu Yuan. “
It took me three months, but I slowly began to get back to being myself, and formed a plan on the next part of my life: I couldn’t lose my store, and I had to pay the debts I owed. My family and I had to keep living.
I restructured my store, figured out what I wanted to do with it, found some suitable investors.
On April 18, 2019, the first store opened.
On May 18, 2019, the second store held its grand opening.
Luckily, even though I left for a very long time, my customers were still waiting for me, just like everyone on Bilibili and Weibo.
My store’s style/food/posters/menus/photography/themes/recipes/accounts are all created by me and ran by me. I don’t dare to fail, so I spent a lot of time to prepare.
The videos played on the screen (in the store) are all cut and edited by me, and it will rotate between advertising my products and Haoran’s video edits. When I meet customers who like Haoran, I always can’t help but talk a little longer with them.
I know if I work hard enough, I will soon be able to clear my debts, and the warmth I received from the crowdfunding, I will slowly give back. With my store as the base, I have also started trying to perform little acts of love.
Without Liu Haoran and those who love him, I will still move forward. But because of you all, I am more determined, and touched.
I am full of gratitude to Mr. Liu’s help, and even more thankful that because of him, I have met you all.
My father will watch over you all like he watches over me. At this new age (today is her birthday), I will become a hard working, kind person.
Thank you, Liu Haoran. Thank you, each and every one of you.